Journal

My personal thought journal on everyday life living as a young Canadian woman, wife and mother. You can also find me on instagram @lostblondesole

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    2020 the year I’m asking: Are we willingly being guided off the cliff?

    An ex always used to make this comment about how he felt people acted like sheep and just followed the herd, so to speak. We all do the same things, talk about the same things, take the same paths in life etc. I heard what he said but could never understand fully what he meant and therefore always disagreed. On the surface, materialisticly we looked so different. Over the course of the past year I have learned a lot. One of the most valuable lessons I’ve learned is to not be a follower. And no I’m not talking about you taking on the leadership role during a work project or…

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    Zoo’s

    So, we binged Tiger King on @netflix the other night…⁣ ⁣ Its one of the the most mind boggling series I’ve ever watched.⁣ ⁣ Tiger King is an docuseries about the 3 largest big cat keepers in the US. It dives into the lifestyle of these cat keepers, their love life’s, business relationships and relationships with their big cats. ⁣ ⁣ The series follows the story of Joe Exotic the self proclaimed Tiger King and his hate for a woman named Carole who runs and operates Big Cat Rescue. They claim to be a rescue for Big Cats that come from these exotic animal zoos and abandoned house pets etc.…

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    We’re not all in the same boat, but we’re all weathering the same storm

    The times are uncertain. ⁣ ⁣ It’s terrifying for everyone. ⁣ ⁣ The aura is uncomfortable and eerie. ⁣ ⁣ ⁣ But, this is the first time every single person not only across Canada 🇨🇦 or even North America has faced the same problem. ⁣ ⁣ We’re facing the same fear, the same uncertainty and the same eerie feeling. ⁣ ⁣ There’s a beauty in that though. That through tough times we can have empathy for all. ⁣ ⁣ Today I’m so grateful. I’m grateful to live in a country that supports its citizens. I’m so grateful I have family and friends supporting me. That we have our health. That…

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    #nojudgement

    I’m ready for a #nojudgmentmovement. ⁣ ⁣ We are all fighting for the causes that are important to us yet judge others for having different priorities or fighting for a different fight. ⁣ ⁣ I’m not sure what sparked this in me; but I’ve really come to realize just how many people are sitting back looking down on others. ⁣ ⁣ I first really noticed this when I was pregnant. For the most part, people know to not comment on what people are eating, how much they’re gaining/loosing, for the activities they’re doing etc. Yet the second a women becomes pregnant, everyone becomes an expert in pregnancy and to that mom’s…

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    International Womens Day

    Happy international women’s day!  You might be thinking it’s odd I’m sharing a photo of me and my son.  Or maybe not because you know how obsessed I am with those cheeks 🤷🏼‍♀️ This was intentional though. The fight for women is still an important one, more than ever right now. Respect & equality — of all kinds for every being, starts in the home. It’s my duty as a mom and parent to teach my son these values. Remember that these tiny humans are watching our every move. They’re watching how dad treats mom. What expectations there are of mom and those of dad. How we treat our parents, friends…

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    6 months PP Update

      Oh, here I am again giving you another update on my health. I feel so silly typing these posts out thinking 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘵𝘩 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴? But surprisingly I hear often from friends, family and online friends I’ve never met before how much they appreciate that I have been sharing my journey. ⁣ ⁣ THANK YOU! Its so awesome to know that so many people in my life care for me that way. It’s truly remarkable!⁣ ⁣ Anywho, so as many of you know I hit 6 months postpartum — Huntly & I just got back from the doctors for his 6 months check-up. I’m sneaky…

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    This is what makes me, me -not you or them

      I am honestly getting so tired of the general population and everything that entails (business, governments, communities etc) telling everyone that if they do what works for them it will surely guarantee the same results for others. ⁣ ⁣ It’s a guarantee that know one can ever make so why do we all always fall for it? ⁣ ⁣And we all do fall for it, one way or another. ⁣ ⁣ Can you tell I’m a tad triggered?? ⁣ ⁣ I don’t know why I keep falling upon these fitness influencers who are pregnant who are promising that anyone can look like them if they put in the work.…

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    A shameful pregnancy

    When I look back to my pregnancy journey I’m disappointed. ⁣ ⁣ I’m disappointed in myself that I didn’t embrace the changes my body went through. ⁣ ⁣I’m disappointed I didn’t document my progress. ⁣ ⁣I’m disappointed I literally didn’t take any photos – it’s like an entire year doesn’t exist when you look at my photo album. ⁣ ⁣But most of all I’m disappointed with how medical professionals talk to women. ⁣ ⁣ This was 100% a major contributing factor to my diminishing confidence. ⁣ ⁣This was 100% a factor to me refusing to look at myself naked. ⁣ ⁣ Before I was pregnant I would make comments about…

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    Cholesterol

      There’s been a lot of buzz around this. If I’m speaking honestly, I kind of expected it; who doesn’t like pasta?! ⁣ ⁣If this were even 6 months ago you wouldn’t see me eating pasta on a weekday. I deemed it as a “cheat meal.” ⁣ ⁣ High in carbohydrates. ⁣ ⁣ High in calories. ⁣ ⁣ Two things I would avoid Monday-Friday. ⁣ ⁣ This may come as a big surprise to some, but my relationship with food and nutrition has become so much healthier over the past couple months we’ve been vegan. ⁣ ⁣ I was stuck in the diet circle constantly cutting carbs. Good & bad.…

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    Emergency C-Section

      One thing that’s bothered me most about my postpartum story is the lack of education I received. Regarding both planned and unplanned c- sections. With a planned c-section you’re at least given time to think up questions, come up with concerns and do some of your own research. But an emergency c-section is called an emergency for a reason. There is no time to educate the new parents on this sudden and very major change to the birth they were picturing just moments ago. ⁣ ⁣ Being 6 months postpartum now I’m really starting to get pissed off (for lack of a better word). Every birth class, breastfeeding class,…